Post by Handsome Devil on Sept 3, 2011 13:52:45 GMT -5
This'll be the second time I leave this site, this time for much less petty reasons. I won't be deleting my account, but I probably won't log on for some time, if ever. Here's the skinny:
The Steve J Pulaski board has been a decent sized chunk of my internet time for over a year now. It's this weird little spot on the net. But, there's nothing left here for me. The time it takes to log in and check it isn't worth it, especially considering I just see my same old posts.
I'm constantly fighting. I hate it. I hate feeling like I'm belittling Steve, and making him nervous to see I posted on one of his reviews. I've been in that position before, on this very board even, and nothing is worse than being attacked by someone you can't see. The fucked up part is that I feel I'm almost always in the right in my arguments. It's this weird moral dilemma that just isn't worth it anymore. It's a pathetic back and forth between me and whoever I'm arguing with that ends when one person decides they can't deal with it. No one is happy, but I feel like it's an obligation. There are some things I can't let slide.
Clinging onto the board is futile. We live in an incredible age, where the words of one man can reach thousands at the click of a button. It's being wasted here. There are much greener pastures, and that's part of the reason I'm leaving.
So, if this board, porn, Youtube, Hulu, Wkipedia, and Sidereel occupy 25% of my internet usage, the other 75% is dedicated to Whiskey Media. I've dropped this name seemingly hundreds of times, and yet I've never gotten a PM on that site saying "Hey, it's (INSERT NAME) from the SJP board!" I just feel like I'm talking into a wall when I talk about this week's Bombcast or TNT. If I can go there to talk about my main internet passion, why waste time here when no one seems to care? Steve may sympathize with me on this. Trust me, there are better places.
Hawk left not so long ago, largely because of me. I feel like he had the right idea. There are more important things to life than the internet. If you're going to spend your time there, do it where you love it. Porn and Giant Bomb, that's where I love it. Most of the information I post here is redundant and takes away from the places I truly love.
I've become a troll. I've changed allegiances, likes, dislikes, ages, names, more times than I care to count. My true allegiances lie elsewhere. I've also got some personal shit to sort out that is a little too private to share here of all places. I need to manage my time better and focus on other stuff. I see posts here and consider responding, but a large part of me says "fuck it." That's a section I've been ignoring for a long time, maybe it's time to listen to it.
All of these reasons are part of it, but there's something more intangible that I can't quite put into words. The board feels dead. It feels dead because it is dead. Five regular posters is no way to keep a board running. We all have varying interests, and most of them are not being serviced here. We all need to find our own spots. Maybe it's time we all go our separate ways. I feel it's better for me at least to be the first one to leave.
I want to say more, but that's really it. I'm not going to lie, this is a sudden decision. But when it came into my mind, I couldn't get it out. It feels like the right decision, for now at least. Don't try to change my mind, and don't guilt trip me.
This is not my goodbye to the internet. You can find me at any of these places:
Giant Bomb
Screened
Tested
Comic Vine
Anime Vice
Twitter
YouTube
Formspring
Respek. It's been real.
--HD
The Steve J Pulaski board has been a decent sized chunk of my internet time for over a year now. It's this weird little spot on the net. But, there's nothing left here for me. The time it takes to log in and check it isn't worth it, especially considering I just see my same old posts.
I'm constantly fighting. I hate it. I hate feeling like I'm belittling Steve, and making him nervous to see I posted on one of his reviews. I've been in that position before, on this very board even, and nothing is worse than being attacked by someone you can't see. The fucked up part is that I feel I'm almost always in the right in my arguments. It's this weird moral dilemma that just isn't worth it anymore. It's a pathetic back and forth between me and whoever I'm arguing with that ends when one person decides they can't deal with it. No one is happy, but I feel like it's an obligation. There are some things I can't let slide.
Clinging onto the board is futile. We live in an incredible age, where the words of one man can reach thousands at the click of a button. It's being wasted here. There are much greener pastures, and that's part of the reason I'm leaving.
So, if this board, porn, Youtube, Hulu, Wkipedia, and Sidereel occupy 25% of my internet usage, the other 75% is dedicated to Whiskey Media. I've dropped this name seemingly hundreds of times, and yet I've never gotten a PM on that site saying "Hey, it's (INSERT NAME) from the SJP board!" I just feel like I'm talking into a wall when I talk about this week's Bombcast or TNT. If I can go there to talk about my main internet passion, why waste time here when no one seems to care? Steve may sympathize with me on this. Trust me, there are better places.
Hawk left not so long ago, largely because of me. I feel like he had the right idea. There are more important things to life than the internet. If you're going to spend your time there, do it where you love it. Porn and Giant Bomb, that's where I love it. Most of the information I post here is redundant and takes away from the places I truly love.
I've become a troll. I've changed allegiances, likes, dislikes, ages, names, more times than I care to count. My true allegiances lie elsewhere. I've also got some personal shit to sort out that is a little too private to share here of all places. I need to manage my time better and focus on other stuff. I see posts here and consider responding, but a large part of me says "fuck it." That's a section I've been ignoring for a long time, maybe it's time to listen to it.
All of these reasons are part of it, but there's something more intangible that I can't quite put into words. The board feels dead. It feels dead because it is dead. Five regular posters is no way to keep a board running. We all have varying interests, and most of them are not being serviced here. We all need to find our own spots. Maybe it's time we all go our separate ways. I feel it's better for me at least to be the first one to leave.
I want to say more, but that's really it. I'm not going to lie, this is a sudden decision. But when it came into my mind, I couldn't get it out. It feels like the right decision, for now at least. Don't try to change my mind, and don't guilt trip me.
This is not my goodbye to the internet. You can find me at any of these places:
Giant Bomb
Screened
Tested
Comic Vine
Anime Vice
YouTube
Formspring
Respek. It's been real.
--HD